A wall-of-texty (maybe) post to my old Smash friends.

[thewarriorxero]

Hello, Smash Academy. It's been quite a while since I last talked to a lot of you. A whopping eight months. (That's not actually that long, I guess.)

--If you haven't RPed with me in Smash before, feel free to completely ignore this post. You can read it if you want, though.--

If you want the Teal Deer version of this, please skip to the end of the entry.


I suppose I should start this letter with an apology. A long time coming, you could say. I miss the days where I played as Smithy and Tails. I could at least have said I was partially active then. My escapades late into RPing as Tails, and both attempts at Cream were abysmal, and I apologize profusely for my lack of activity and general attitude. I wish I could have gone back and told myself to not come back with Cream, since I was in a bad place for RPing and my second attempt with Cream led to an eventual total RP burnout, which I recently recovered from.

Maybe it's not necessary to do this, but I feel it is. So for all of that, I apologize from the bottom of my heart.

The next thing to talk about would be my characterization. It's funny how much I dislike how I RPed as Tails in the past. My current run of him at Exsilium is going a lot better and I feel he's much more true to his canon self (even if still aged up a bit) than he was at Smash. A lot of you liked the way he was played and I'm grateful that I didn't do horribly, but I still felt like I didn't do so well at portraying him. How weird is it that the only character at Smash I felt I did right was an eight year old rabbit girl? Maybe it's because she's easier to play than Tails was, but I feel that's no excuse. Ease of play shouldn't mean a whole lot since not very many Sonic characters are what you could call exasperatingly complicated. That being said, there's always a lot of personality holes from canon and all the Sonic characters I've seen here were wonderfully patched up in that respect and given something that surpasses all that canon could ever give to them. You guys kick ass, and don't you dare ever forget that. I'm just sorry I never got to do a whole lot with you guys.

Finally, I want to apologize for my flaking out. Sure, this links to my first apology for dropping and not being active, but I chose really, really bad times for coming back. I never gave it more thought than me missing everyone (even if that's all it could take) and the game itself. I should've just never come at those times to begin with, and maybe came back when I felt I could've done a lot better at it.


That being said, it's possible that I may return in the future, for better or for worse. Soon or late. At some point.

But I want to promise you guys that if I do, that I will be ready. I will not make the choice lightly to come back. I will be prepared to be active. Perhaps not quite as active as a lot of you guys are (how you do it will continue to astound me) but enough to be considered actually doing something worth RPing with.

Of course, I'm not going to waltz in and expect everything to be hunky-dory and roses and sunshine. I request to know what you guys would think about it. I want to note here, right now, that I do not plan on re-apping Smithy, Tails or Cream. It would most likely cause issues, though Tails is a possibility if you guys really still need him in the future. Since you all have allowed all canons, it opens up a whole new world of possibilities. So I will find someone that will work out the best.

Oh and Mint? Undecided on her but I likely will not be bringing in that Bayleef OC I was thinking up last time...

I don't expect everyone to reply. You don't have to if you don't want to. You can always hit me up on AIM, or reply anonymously, or PM me on this account. Or none at all, if you'd prefer. I know that everyone isn't the happiest with me due to the past, but I ask that you all give me one more chance to prove myself.

If you've read this far, thank you for reading all this rambling. If you feel I've wasted your time, I'm sorry for doing so.

I hope to hear back from you, if you so choose to do so.


TL;DR: I'm sorry for being a gigantic RP idiot and I hope that you guys can forgive me in the future. Also you may see me app sometime but if I do I will not allow the past to repeat itself.